Have you ever been 4 months pregnant and (just for fun) tried on some of your old clothes that you used to wear when you were say, single and dating? No? Well, here's what happens: While you do manage to wrestle that cute skirt up over your hips, you are horrified when you look in the mirror to find that there are a full five inches of skin between the zipper! I'm talking like a chasm! I'm talking like order this girl another yard of fabric 'cause the tailor made a mistake!
Needless to say, the ol' belly is growing, and I am truly loving it! I will admit that as I began packing up the numerous clothes in my closet that I know will not fit me from now until at least June of next year, I was worried. I called around. To my friend: "Do you think I will ever get back into those clothes?" Friend: "Of course you will, no doubt!" To James: "Will I ever again sport those size 8 jeans... oh hell, how about the size 10's?" James: "Of course you will. You've hardly gained that much weight. You're fine." Even dear old Mum (the eternal pessimist): "Will my body ever bounce back?" Mum: "Yes." (She didn't flinch either.) Thanks for the vote of confidence, but I'm still scared. Don't get me started on the birth either. I'll turn into a downright, fretful wobbly mess on you. Movingon...

This week also marks another milestone. I can't see my crotch! This is one thing they fail to mention in the pregnancy books. Now I know why all the women in the birthing photos look so... natural?? Come on people, they look like cave women that wouldn't know the difference between a wax strip and a stick of gum. Primitive. I found a way to work around that problem though. Being hairy doesn't suit me.

I am so eager to start shopping. Or at least start looking. Is it too soon? Should I wait until we know Brumbytron's official gender? Will that be too late? I'm starting to really want to know, and I mean really, because I'm past the 16 week line and it's possible. Maybe I will. I have already sought out a birthing class... and I want to take it NOW! I want it now!
The reality is we probably won't take the class until late September. So what's a girl to do in the meantime? I find myself talking about Brumbytron a lot with James. I feel the need to be super connected to him right now. To make it as real for him as it is for me. Asking too much? He goes to every appointment with me and I see a tear in his eye every time we see our baby. Yet, there is something solitary about being pregnant. I would not say lonely because clearly, I am not alone... but I am pregnant and the people around me are not. Some have been and they share their stories with me, but they are not pregnant with me. We are pregnant but James is not. Though he is interested and listens and tries so hard to 'get me' I can't make him understand the feeling of 'round ligament pain' or how my belly gets tighter and harder in the evening. Or explain why it is that I start crying over 'Extreme Makeovers'... or why I am even watching that show to begin with. I sometimes feel isolated in my crazy, fluctuating body and emotions. Weird. Oh, and so tiiiired. I come home from work late afternoon and I eat, nap, eat, sleep, eat, sleep... then wake up in the morning and do it all over again. I feel so burned out after working a 9 hour day and so, I'm taking a few days off later this week to do absolutely nothing except hang out here, answer ALL MY COMMENTS, finish my WIPS and soak my feet. It's going to be lovely. And I'm taking my year-long maternity leave in 1 month, which was earlier than I originally planned, but in the time between then and the birth I need to do so much (get married, honeymoon, finish Brumbytron's room, buy stuff... etc) Bugger work. I just won't have time for it. Gotta think of my health too.

I am definitely feeling movements... See, I'm a gassy girl so I can never be sure if what I feel is Brumbytron or just rumblings from my bowels, but most times it's unmistakable kicking. I do know that in the morning my belly actually looks lopsided. I try to sleep mainly on my left so I think I'm mushing Brumbytron over to the right. Is this possible? I also know that I feel discomfort if I lay on my right side. Which solidifies that this child is a lot like me. Apparently, when my mum was pregnant with me I would not allow her to sleep on either side. If she tried, I would kick out until she could see my footprint and make her roll over on her back. Now this is problematic because after about 20 weeks you're not supposed to sleep on your back. Something about cutting the flow off to your AORTA! Great. I guess I will have to resort to sleeping standing up in the closet.

Name help, plz? Only need one of each but just can't decide. Which would you choose?

Boy
Benjamin James
Lachlan James
Saxon James

Girl
Melody Jayne
Elizabeth Rose
Brianna Rose

Love yehz. Miss yehz. Need to nap now.

~Teh Brumbster & Brumbytron

P.S: I wanna send some special love to *PearlyPony, *Thowra and ~Megatron80 for cheering me up so much yesterday and today. Thanks, guys.

P.P.S: Oh, and much love to Midge as well for chewing Bippo's nose off. He doesn't seem so scary anymore, in fact he seems almost comical. I can't sew the nose back on either because I don't know where it is! Yay! You're my fuzzy little hero, Midge.

Bye everyone. Talk to you soon.





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